eternalwait

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 01:18:24 GMT

Betty's comic:
<http://www.webcomicsnation.com/adsila/murder/series.php>
GO! It's amazing! I am jealoussss of her effective negative space. (Hehe I am talking like Mr Young. Except he would use bigger words that I don't know. =( ...)

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 01:04:56 GMT

I saw dead bodies.

Almost-poems

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 21:15:28 GMT

I always start writing poems but run out of inspiration right in the middle. (ignore spelling mistakes) You can totally tell I am obsessive with one guy's eyes.

A thin film of frost
Freezes on the windowpane
Flowery tendrils reache
Every far corner of glass

(Inspired by a certain boy who claims he has no emotions)
Then put on your cloak of nonchalancy as a shield
You are but a coward too afraid fo face these emotions

And you're so cute when your ears turn pink from the cold
My eyes are glued to yours and everything fades away
When you smile, it's like turning on the sun
Slowly falling for you

I don't know how you do what you do to me
One look is all it takes to make me start shaking
I hate these feelings you awaken inside me
And how cold you can act while still smiling

For a frozen moment
Our eyes meet
Challenge each other
To look away first
Both far too stubborn
To give in now
An act of defiance
Against my heart
Refuse to shy away
From this

(Inspired by Chris. Like actually, most of it are his exact words)
If you really want my heart
I'll let you go at it with this knife
But please be gentle
I don't want to hurt again
Cut swiftly and numb the pain
Then you hold the organ in your hands
And if you'd like to play
Don't drop my love on the ground
Sew it back with this needle
You know I won't survive without it
So the wounds will heal
But the scars will remind me

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 02:09:32 GMT

...The funny thing is, he doesn't even like that band. (HE TOLD ME)
I'M the one who likes that band! Stupidhead.

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 13:34:12 GMT

...Because sometimes you make me feel like I'll never be able to breathe again.
Welllll I got over him. And started liking him the very day after. >_< WTF.
Parents are being really unbearable lately.
Maybe the prospect of LEAVING and going FAR FAR AWAY will provide motivation to work harder at school.

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 22:39:36 GMT

What's left unsaid echoes within my cavernous self
Do you know how hard it is to sit here and pretend
You mean nothing to me?
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I think I'm over him... Accidentally. This wasn't the plan at all.

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 19:21:00 GMT

I miiiiight switch here instead of xanga. Not sure yet. Xanga's prettier, I guess. (I don't know html AT ALL)

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 15:50:38 GMT

& I'll play the angry teenager down to the last detail...

Until I'm ready for my next role...

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 21:00:21 GMT

<http://trapezzoid.livejournal.com/104423.html#cutid1>
I laughed so much.
Love the chorus part. "Break up in time for college plans"

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 02:01:51 GMT

So we went to McGill Sunday... for open house. It was alright.
I found out I can only MINOR in Pharmacology and will probably have to major in something like Microbiology and Immunology. OR switch to Food Sciences. >_<
Oh I've been so incredibly happy these last two weeks that I am dreading my imminent depression phase. It always has to be balanced. That's good news for when I'm depressed (I'll surely be happy soon) But it's bad news when I am happy because I know it won't last.

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 22:45:19 GMT

I had totally forgotten how amazing MYS is and why she's my best friend. I feel sooooo ashamed. >_<

Missed Chris soooo much and it was comforting to hear his voice. Hehe "rule #2: NO baby-making!" AS IF!!! Ewwwww I can't imagine that.

Think my personality has altered slightly under the influence of the people I hang around nowadays. It's a good change though. But sort of scary how blunt I am. I just don't feel like hurting.

Had dinner last night at someone's house. (I have no idea who they are lmao) but woahhh Q was there! And his mum remembered me! On a side note, you know who saw ALL of this coming? Q. At the start of the school year he was like: "So, are you going to date him now?" >_< I'm not dating him but crap I like him now.

Right. I asked him out. Uhm.. It was definitely not a no. Just wanted to see what the answer would be. Agh he's just being nice.

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 18:59:50 GMT

I just want to bang my head against the wall until I finally GET IT.

Partially exams. Partially HELLO-WHAT-ARE-YOU-DOING-YOU-CAN'T-LIKE-HIM-HE'S-YOUR-FRIEND!

I was listening to Soul Meets Body (Death Cab) and it reached the part where the guy randomly sings "badabada....etc". Anyway, it reminded me of yesterday. The boy knows I like that part and timed it just right so when I put on the headphones it was that part. He's so great.

And it's weird because he used to always be kinda mean (in a joke-y way) but suddenly this past week (ish) he's incredibly nice and I have no idea what's going on but OH NO I like him again. (I stopped 2 months ago) Wow that was such a run-on sentence. I'll actually have to care about that next semester.

I just need to focus on the fact that he ditched me 2 days before semi and I totally had to find a new date and therefore it would be idiotic to like him. Right? But he's been so nice... And he made a point not to ditch me yesterday when this other girl asked him to go... uhm. *SIGH*

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 20:35:12 GMT

I got accused of being Santa Claus. >_<

But I was always a convincing Grinch (lol BAH HUMBUG - wrong book, I know) so I deflected that one...

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 00:22:17 GMT

Let's start anew...

I finished reading through my entries... and deleted them. They were really fun to read. =D I remember most of it...

GO TO SEMI! lol you get to dress up... It'll be interesting. Though a few people aren't going - that I really wish were going... Oh well I'll just have to find other people to hang out with. Uhm. Hm...

Soap Opera has restarted. I guess Mr Writer was a little out of inspiration for a while. Hand me my script and we'll play this through.